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♥ Tuesday, June 3, 2008 ~ 5:05 PM ♥                       .jpg) -001.jpg)   wooh!! im finally back..hahha. after so long of working like hell. now its time for me to take a break lah..hmm. life haf been terribly busy for me.haf been working like mad dog. from morning to late nite..hahhaa. had to lah.coz i had to pay for my house bills..haiz. didnt get to enjoy my pay siax. everytg goes to my house bills..nt even a single sen to spent. wtf!!! hahhaha.my dad haf been making noise coz i didnt give him any money. bt wad can i do???i dun haf any extra.n i still haf alot to pay..ouh gosh.. haihs..life is so damn hard.. i was too busy with work till i had to b a distance from my lpaking friends. well i do miss the lpaking gang.. Diana,paula,syahril,amin,rawk,adzan..everyone lah.. each time they msg me asking to join them lpak, i will alwaes b at work..haihs. stress pe aku?? im sure they are having so much fun n yar.. i guess im missing out all the fun uh??wadduh!! sorry guys!! i'll find some time for u guys k???miss u guys lots!!!! A new beggining for me..lately.. i've been staying over at cik imah's place. im having some probs at home. dats y i decided to b away awhile lah.well. i had so much fun there. njoying every sec of it.acai is alwaes dere to make me laugh. care abt me like his own siblings.even my siblings dun treat me like dat.. im touched wen acai told me dat he care for me.n im da only kin left for him. each and everyday.b4 and after work,he wud msg me.. asking if i've eaten or not. what im doing. hows my dae. and ask me to take care..wooh.. im touched lah..i tot dat no one cares abt me oready.. he really made my dae.and i can c dat he really cares abt me.. well Cai.. i love u too dear! Next..i haf been starting to b close with nafis.yar.. i noe how acai disagree with me being wit his own buddy.. im really sorry to dissapoint him.bt. me and nafis. we are just close friends.yar. i noe how intimidate we can be. bt trust me.. we are just friends flinging ard..hahhaha. well. he haf alwaes been there for me wen i need someone to talk to. he wud make me laugh even wen i dun even wanna smile.. we are close..im like his next buddy..hahha. although sometimes i feel dat we are like a couple, bt still i wud think twice..y?? cus he got a beautiful and sweet gf.. he loves his gf alot. bt hmm. dun noe lah. no matter wad. da two of us can nv b together.. hahhha.bt i love him like how i love acai.. hahha. thanks for being a great friend dear!! my Family??? It seems dat n0 0ne is there to care 4 me. No one sh0ws that they l0ve me. Till i even t0t dat n0 0ne knew dat i exsist. Well,mayb its bcuz i seld0m get any attenti0n 4rm my family. Its like n0 0ne cares abt me. They haf their own family n hafing so much fun t0gether every weekend. Didnt even ask me out. From there,i felt so left out. It seems like i dun haf ani0ne else. All they n0e is juz to sc0ld me 4 mixing da wr0ng c0mpany n wasting my time wit friends rather den w0rking full time. 0uh g0sh. I w0nder if they haf ever spare a t0t 4 my feelings. I juz feel dat im n0 l0nger their y0unger sister. I realy felt s0 left out. Haiz. Is dz wad they call family?? What is family actually. . I realy envy l00king at a huge happy family t0gether. At t0wn,at the beach,juz hanging out t0gether hafing dinner. Wooh. Wen i started mixing wit the bp peeps. Well. I enjoy myself. Alth0ugh wad they did wasnt a healty activity,its fun. Its nt as if i j0in them doing all th0se thgs. Bt i juz slack wit them. They realy made me so cheerful. Im s0 happy weneva i lpak2 with them. Bt still,my siblings were againts it. Cuz y? Cuz they are afraid dat i might get influence by them. Dat means dat they dun even trust me!! If i were to easily get influence, by n0w,i wud oready b like them. Bt y didnt i? Bcuz im old enuf to tink. I n0e wads rite n wads wr0ng. Im juz mixing. Bt im n0t involve in their activities!! Y cnt dey juz trust me?? Next up,radin!! We haf been friends 4 alm0st a year! He's very cl0se to me. Even my dad!! N yar. He got license. He drives often. Bring me out. T00k care of me. Bt gues wad? My br0tha was againts it! Y? Bcuz he's driving n he's afraid dat sth mite hapen to me. He wasnt sastified wen my other family t0ld him abt radin! Ouh my god! Wad was he thinking??? Juz cus he drives, my br0tha was againts it? Wtf! Mite as well he l0ck me up in a cage rite? Dun let me mix wit anyone! Always judging a b00k by its c0ver! Nv ever tot abt hys sister happiness. Like hell0! Im 19! No l0nger 15.. I n0e h0w to take care of myself!! My sis n uncle. . Ouh g0sh. An0ther huge pain in my ass! Fr0m young,i was nv given any chance to ch00se wad i like to do! Everytg,they wil ch00se 4 me. N i dun haf the right to sae n0! Siak uh. Its my life n i got da right to ch0se wads best 4 me! I wan to lead my life. I dun wan ppl to lead it 4 me! im old enuf to think and lead my life..aku ada menyusah kan korg pe?? did i even ask a single cent from u????? y must u interfier in my life?? u guys haf been pressurizing me from young. bt wad do u guys get????am i successful now?????????? im living in a hard life bcoz u guys choose it for me! u force me to take office skills.. wen i dun even wan to b working in dat sector.. now i got the cert..wad do u wan me to do??? force myself to work in office?????wtf!!!! ONE DAY I MAY BE GONE FOR GOOD.AND DATS THE TIME FOR U GUYS TO REGRET!!!! |
