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♥ Friday, June 13, 2008 ~ 7:27 PM ♥ hello2!!! hahha. was celebrating nizam's birthday last nite.. well.although it wasnt a huge celebration, bt still we had so much fun.. we laugh our hearts out sak.. kekek giler per. we had so much fun till i had a cut on my lips. waduhh! painful siax!! hhaa. tomorrow i will b working at 11am! shit man!! gonna b damn tired sak.. mampos! wish me luck uh!! gotta feeling dat work gonna b hard tomorrow.. mati lah aku kan.. haihs.. bt haf to lah.. cus celebrating boy bdae on mondae.. haiyyya... im gonna home soon and yar.. acai doesnt allow me to go back.. haya.. dun noe lah how.. hmm. kk. got to go.. misses.. DIANA.. hahahha ♥ Tuesday, June 10, 2008 ~ 6:47 PM ♥ well. im like sorry lah to use dat phrase.. well. no.. i wasnt pretending on dat dae.. i was having so much fun.. i blog that post bcos i just wan u guys to noe wad i've been keeping inside.. serious shit.. im really not pretending.. i also tot dat we are okey.. dah lah.. i dun wan to continue blogging abt this animore.. i just hope dat we cud b okey after this.. marche?? hmm. wait after july aites??? insyallah.. hahaha. take care peeps! ♥ Monday, June 9, 2008 ~ 6:05 AM ♥ Well. u noe wad?? sometimes.. i cant b bothered by friends nowadays. y?? cuz.. its not dat i dun trust friends. its just dat sometimes friends do BITCH around. yar.. i noe how much shit i've done. those fucking lies dat i've told. no one is perfect. im bad. yesh.. i admit.. but.. a true friend would come straight to my face if there's sth they are unhappy about. well. im open enuf. n i'll appreciate it if they tell me rite to my face.. nt by blogging n let the whole world noe and yar.. bitch abt me behind my back.. sorry for all the shit that i've done.. bt nv in my freaking life did i call my friends all sorts of names.. like hello. im not upset or hurt.. im just dissapointed. if she can come up to me telling me dat yar she does talk behind my back,y not u?? at least.. she gave me a very good reason.. she saed dat i've changed alot.. i can accept dat.. but u?? all u cud is just blog and let eveyone noe.. well boy. i read ur tag board.. i think almost everyone noes abt it.. wooh. thanks man. if u dun like me,i dun need u to pretend infront of me.. as for me.. i dun hold any grudges on anione. to me its like over. once u confess,i accept it and im okey with it oready.. bt y does it seems like u haf to brag about it?? u may not sae or show.. bt u wrote dat in ur blog.. let me ask u sth.. have i ever discriminate u on the net?? never sak.. bt y me?? aku tau aku jahat. penghianat. pembohong. nv appreciate others.. tapi.. u cud tell me personally.. dats all.. im not saying dat i hate u or wad. we haf been friends since young. we haf gone thru thick and thin from scratch. its impossible 4 me to just let the 7yrs go. i admit its my mistake.. i admit.. im glad dat finnally everytg is out. im glad. thanks so much.. im sorry if i post ds abt u.. really sorry.. i just hope dat after ds,u cud msg me or call me up if i've dissapoint u or sth.. nt by posting out a post abt me.. bt just come up to me.. i wudnt eat u up.. and btw.. there was a period of time wen i suddenly went missing from bp.. its not dat i wen to find new friends or enjoy myself.. bt serious shit.. i was busy working.. nt for spending my pay at guys.. but to pay my freaking dad's debt..... i noe how much i owe u guys.. bt i'll promise to pay u back one dae.. i noe i cant prove how sorry i am.. bt i guess dat it takes time for me to gain ur trust.. give me some time.. one dae. everythg will be proven.. u guys take care aites.. i just hope after dis post,they will not b any more arguements among us yar!! im really sorry for all my fucking mistake.. hope to b forgiven.. =) ♥ ~ 3:27 AM ♥ well. im like suppose to b at west coast shei. but.. lazy lah wanna travel. kecian abg sdare aku sorg2 kat umah. sorry eh acai! hhehehe. i guess u must b sleeping till now uh. hmm. dun worry. will b bringing u out tomorrow k cayang. hahaha.. i had so much fun last friday.. although i was pissed off at first, bt it got better afterall. hahhaa. thanks to dat badot sial (nafis) lah.. always making a fool out of everyone we walked past siaxx!. bastard sakk. i felt so touched lah. when buddy meets buddy and confess. its like. it haf been so long since i saw acai smile.. bt dat very dae. everytg went perfectly okey.. he was smilling widely.. thank god lar..hmm. saturday.. work was okey lah. wasnt dat bad. its just dayt bcos of my new shoe, i've go blister. haiz.. pain u noe!! stress sak.. Captain Azli was fun indeed.. he was so hippies lah. lalallala. funny lah dia! hahahha kk. gonna bed soon.. nites babes!! ♥ ~ 3:03 AM ♥  meet my new bestie..  the b.s gang!! hahaha  my besti n his sweet GURLFRIEND!!  just a fwen lar! .jpg) still single u noe!!  he miss his baby!  nafiShida  sweet people thinks alike  we care.. ♥ Thursday, June 5, 2008 ~ 3:39 PM ♥ finally.. the truth is out... woohh!!
im so happy lah.. i knew dat someday i will come to noe it.. phew.. thanks2.. like i saed. i dun really give a damn. say what u wanna say.. i dun care.. it doesnt matter. ♥ Tuesday, June 3, 2008 ~ 5:05 PM ♥                       .jpg) -001.jpg)   wooh!! im finally back..hahha. after so long of working like hell. now its time for me to take a break lah..hmm. life haf been terribly busy for me.haf been working like mad dog. from morning to late nite..hahhaa. had to lah.coz i had to pay for my house bills..haiz. didnt get to enjoy my pay siax. everytg goes to my house bills..nt even a single sen to spent. wtf!!! hahhaha.my dad haf been making noise coz i didnt give him any money. bt wad can i do???i dun haf any extra.n i still haf alot to pay..ouh gosh.. haihs..life is so damn hard.. i was too busy with work till i had to b a distance from my lpaking friends. well i do miss the lpaking gang.. Diana,paula,syahril,amin,rawk,adzan..everyone lah.. each time they msg me asking to join them lpak, i will alwaes b at work..haihs. stress pe aku?? im sure they are having so much fun n yar.. i guess im missing out all the fun uh??wadduh!! sorry guys!! i'll find some time for u guys k???miss u guys lots!!!! A new beggining for me..lately.. i've been staying over at cik imah's place. im having some probs at home. dats y i decided to b away awhile lah.well. i had so much fun there. njoying every sec of it.acai is alwaes dere to make me laugh. care abt me like his own siblings.even my siblings dun treat me like dat.. im touched wen acai told me dat he care for me.n im da only kin left for him. each and everyday.b4 and after work,he wud msg me.. asking if i've eaten or not. what im doing. hows my dae. and ask me to take care..wooh.. im touched lah..i tot dat no one cares abt me oready.. he really made my dae.and i can c dat he really cares abt me.. well Cai.. i love u too dear! Next..i haf been starting to b close with nafis.yar.. i noe how acai disagree with me being wit his own buddy.. im really sorry to dissapoint him.bt. me and nafis. we are just close friends.yar. i noe how intimidate we can be. bt trust me.. we are just friends flinging ard..hahhaha. well. he haf alwaes been there for me wen i need someone to talk to. he wud make me laugh even wen i dun even wanna smile.. we are close..im like his next buddy..hahha. although sometimes i feel dat we are like a couple, bt still i wud think twice..y?? cus he got a beautiful and sweet gf.. he loves his gf alot. bt hmm. dun noe lah. no matter wad. da two of us can nv b together.. hahhha.bt i love him like how i love acai.. hahha. thanks for being a great friend dear!! my Family??? It seems dat n0 0ne is there to care 4 me. No one sh0ws that they l0ve me. Till i even t0t dat n0 0ne knew dat i exsist. Well,mayb its bcuz i seld0m get any attenti0n 4rm my family. Its like n0 0ne cares abt me. They haf their own family n hafing so much fun t0gether every weekend. Didnt even ask me out. From there,i felt so left out. It seems like i dun haf ani0ne else. All they n0e is juz to sc0ld me 4 mixing da wr0ng c0mpany n wasting my time wit friends rather den w0rking full time. 0uh g0sh. I w0nder if they haf ever spare a t0t 4 my feelings. I juz feel dat im n0 l0nger their y0unger sister. I realy felt s0 left out. Haiz. Is dz wad they call family?? What is family actually. . I realy envy l00king at a huge happy family t0gether. At t0wn,at the beach,juz hanging out t0gether hafing dinner. Wooh. Wen i started mixing wit the bp peeps. Well. I enjoy myself. Alth0ugh wad they did wasnt a healty activity,its fun. Its nt as if i j0in them doing all th0se thgs. Bt i juz slack wit them. They realy made me so cheerful. Im s0 happy weneva i lpak2 with them. Bt still,my siblings were againts it. Cuz y? Cuz they are afraid dat i might get influence by them. Dat means dat they dun even trust me!! If i were to easily get influence, by n0w,i wud oready b like them. Bt y didnt i? Bcuz im old enuf to tink. I n0e wads rite n wads wr0ng. Im juz mixing. Bt im n0t involve in their activities!! Y cnt dey juz trust me?? Next up,radin!! We haf been friends 4 alm0st a year! He's very cl0se to me. Even my dad!! N yar. He got license. He drives often. Bring me out. T00k care of me. Bt gues wad? My br0tha was againts it! Y? Bcuz he's driving n he's afraid dat sth mite hapen to me. He wasnt sastified wen my other family t0ld him abt radin! Ouh my god! Wad was he thinking??? Juz cus he drives, my br0tha was againts it? Wtf! Mite as well he l0ck me up in a cage rite? Dun let me mix wit anyone! Always judging a b00k by its c0ver! Nv ever tot abt hys sister happiness. Like hell0! Im 19! No l0nger 15.. I n0e h0w to take care of myself!! My sis n uncle. . Ouh g0sh. An0ther huge pain in my ass! Fr0m young,i was nv given any chance to ch00se wad i like to do! Everytg,they wil ch00se 4 me. N i dun haf the right to sae n0! Siak uh. Its my life n i got da right to ch0se wads best 4 me! I wan to lead my life. I dun wan ppl to lead it 4 me! im old enuf to think and lead my life..aku ada menyusah kan korg pe?? did i even ask a single cent from u????? y must u interfier in my life?? u guys haf been pressurizing me from young. bt wad do u guys get????am i successful now?????????? im living in a hard life bcoz u guys choose it for me! u force me to take office skills.. wen i dun even wan to b working in dat sector.. now i got the cert..wad do u wan me to do??? force myself to work in office?????wtf!!!! ONE DAY I MAY BE GONE FOR GOOD.AND DATS THE TIME FOR U GUYS TO REGRET!!!! |
