My Story My Life

hello

2008-09-30T21:17:00.002+08:00

hey!! looks like im no longer gonna update my blog dat often lah..
life have been busy lah..
sorry guys..

Thanks!!

2008-08-22T21:11:00.001+08:00

Firstly.. GurlFRIEND PAULA.. Thanks for editing my blog. Its so nice n i really like it tau! Haha. Thanks alot shayang. It was so sweet of u darlx! Haha.

Guess what. My fate haf been changing recently. It all went wr0ng 4 me. There's no m0re Badot Sial Gang. No m0re Bdk2 Lpak at Bp. No more JOB.. Everytg haf ended juz like dat. Ouh g0sh. I realy dun n0e what's g0ing on siax. S0 feel that the wh0le w0rld is againts me si0l..

It haf been a m0nth since im out of j0b. I paitao rasa bcus i realy had enuf of it larr.. Eversince they recruited new staff, it seems that they n0 l0nger need the regulars uh? Fuck it la. Rasa sent0sa res0rt?? Haha. Its m0re like a cheap cheap h0tel sak. Damnit!

Eversince i started my old habits,it seems like its ruining my life sak. Getting paranoid these days and l0st2 m0st of the time. Haiz. Stress sak aku. I've always t0t dat im all al0ne. Bt nv did i realise that i still got gf around me wh0 wil always b there 4 me..

Wani.. Thanks al0t for everything. Eversince the badot sial clan br0ke up,u haf always been there for me.. U are always there to cheer me up when im d0wn n Held me up when i fall. I n0e that i used to hate u. Bt that was all in the past. N0w, its different dear! Im always l00king f0rward to all our outing. C0z i n0e that it wud always b a fun n enjoying one. Haha. I realised sth. That the b0th of us would laugh our hearts out each and everytime. Even the slightest thing,we can make it a j0ke. Haha. Kekek la kamu! Weee. I n0e h0w much u hated me f0r bringing u and acai apart last time. Mayb what me n boy did was wr0ng. Bt im sure u understand y rite? I dun wan my cousin to hurt u further.. Hahaha. N0w that u are back wit hafiz,i juz wish u guys all the best n give u guys my blessings.. N0 matter h0w much acai disappr0ve us of being together,i stil wan u to n0e that nothg can break us apart k shayang. Haha. Im s0rry 4 what i've d0ne in the past. Im realy2 s0rry. I juz h0pe that we both cud stay like h0w we are n0w n... I wan u to n0e that i l0ve u for who u are Rock Chick!! Haha =) thanks a milli0n for making me feel so appreciated gf!! Muaacks.

Eversince the 4 of us br0ke up, it all seem so different. The 4 of us got back to our own path.

Acai... He got back his business again. N0w that he is wit this pathetic bitch named fatin. He haf changed al0t. He bec0me so stub0rn n got back to his old ways. Wads w0rse was he ch00se that bitch over me! Wow! Maybe,what he t0ld boy dhl was true. I shouldnt haf st0p him fr0m being wit ani gurl he wan. Bt. I did all that juz bc0s i dun wane c him suffer later.. I wan what's best f0r him. Thats all. I've got my reas0n for hating That bitch. But. It seems that i cnt do anitg much about it uh? He wudnt wanne listen to me anim0re uh. Ye lah. Aku ni kn stakat adik sdare die je? Hmm. Bt,if anitg were to happen to u or ur future,dun blame me if im gona smash that bitch's ugly fagg0t face uh!
Thanks al0t la. I juz pray hard for ur happiness okey. S0rry =( love u still..

Boy.. I realy got n0 c0mments. Eversince he chg, he haf been giving us the c0ld sh0ulder. Im nt saying that he totally dah tk layan kite. Cume,he haf always been busy with his life. His street life. Haiz.. Well. Mayb its time for me to fade away fr0m him. C0z. I've heard what he saed the other day.. Boy,im realy s0ry 4 being such a nag in ur life n s0ry 4 interfering u n ur buddy rela. I n0e h0w irriting i've been in ur life. Thanks for telling it n0w. Really appreciate it. N aniway, thanks for all those mem0ries we used to had.. Like u said,it was juz a sh0w. Woohu. Thanks al0t lah boy. For letting me put s0 much h0pe in u n crashed it juz like that. Terime kasih la..

To that fucking BITCH, FATIN. Dun think dat i wil let u ruin my cousin u fucking whore!! Dun ever tink im afraid of u juz cos u haf back up out there! Do u tink i give a fucking damn! U haf ruin my happines by snatching away my only cousin. And n0w, u wan to ruin his future too?! Damnit la bitch! Go look urself in the mirror u ugly fagg0rt! Why on earth do u tink my cousin would fall for a ugly 17yr old bitch like u?? Hahaha. Stupid!! Juz wait n c okey!! =) im so l00king f0rward for that day to c0me!! Haha. Take care tau gurl. Weeee.

The seperati0n of us made a huge impact in my life. C0z they haf always been there 4 me for 3m0nths. Always bringing fun n laughter in my empty b0ring life. Haha. All th0se sweet mem0ries we used to had can only b a past to me. An0ther past uh?? Haiya. Good things doesnt realy last uh? Wadduh!!

Lastly. Im desprately l00king f0r a full time j0b n i h0pe that u guys out there cud help me with this. Ani full time job available. Pls let me n0e can!! Hehex. Got to go. Cia0!!

Miss SunShine will still b Miss SunSHINE LAR! hahaha. Wani.. U n0e,i n0e uh. Hahaha.

PictureS

2008-08-22T20:49:00.010+08:00

Is this the End??

2008-07-21T05:28:00.006+08:00

Dedicated to The Badot Sial Gang.. (Acai..Wani..Boy..)

16 of July 2008.....

I still remember the very day we 4 got together..
08 May 08.. The very day we were at cik kadir's place.. where u guys tot dat boy n i had sometg going on just bcos we went to the shop for quite some time.. hhaha. We went drinking at marsling that night.. that was a memorable day for me till now.. cos that was da day we 4 started together.. Before this,maybe we 4 came from a different background.. 4 different people,4 different heart..
I was acai's cousin.. Boy was Acai's buddy.. Wani was Acai's girlfriend..
Eversince that day.. the 4 of us became so close.. united as one.. Every where we go.. we will stick as one.. Friendship.. well dat made me much closer to my my cousin hu haf been growing up with me.. as days goes by.. i started to got closer to boy.. i felt so secure wen im with him.. yar.. we do fling ard.. bt nt to da very extend lar.. well.. acai dissaprove us being together..bt soon after.. he cudnt be bothered animore!! hahaha. sorry!

We had so much fun.. so much laughter.. so much memories.. bt within a short little time.. my hp was jammed with all our crazy pictures.. it was so sweet of us actualy.. i realise dat i've change so much after knowing them.. my life got better and i got much more happier den ever.. they have always been there for me in times wen i came across problems with my loved ones. almost every single day we would meet up and yar.. spent those wonderful times together..
Well. maybe there are misunderstanding here and there.. bt that nv got us apart.. Eversince i met them in life.. from there i understand the meaning of BUDDY.. FRIENDSHIP.. They taught me so much abt life.. Yar.. maybe, the 4 of us cames from diff age group bt we share da same tots.. we were always there for each other.. i still remember those times we had at wcp.. fishing.. jale-ing.. celebrating boy's 17 bdae.. it was all a memorable one.. Minom same2.. Steam same2.. happy2 same2.. sedih pon same2 lar.. JIWE BABE!!!!!!! hahhaha.. to think back.. we haf gone thru 2mths together.. 2 mths of endless happiness. GERREkk lar...

As u noe.. acai and nafis became BUDDY a year ago.. they met each other at work.. thruout the whole year.. what i've heard from the both of them was.. dorg jiwe.. everytg they do will always b together..no Susah senang.. tempoh same2.. they were very close.. verryy222 close.. just like siblings.. Steam same2.. happy2... no problems arouse wen they were together..they got so much happy moments together.. although dorg lain baju, bt still.. buddy will b buddy!

15-16 of july 08..
i was back from work wen i met them at w.c.. wah.. they were from pool.. it haf been such a long time since we last gather sak.. haihs.. i was so happy to c the 4 of us together again.. i realised dat boy wasnt in a mood n was looking very down.. i didnt ask y.. he kept quiet all the way.. after dinner.. we split up as acai had to sent wani home.. me,boy,cik kadir proceed to blok blakang uma acai.. 30minutes later.. still no sign of him.. then guess wad???? he msg me asking boy to catch the last bus home n ask me to come up his place.. wah!! tak mangkok tu?? boy read da msg and he reply K THANKS.. wah.. i tink i cud feel wads going thru in boy's heart sak.. confirm saket hati.. Dia dah lah turun sini jauh2.. blanje acai maen pool coz dah lame tak jumpe.. end up.. BUDDY srh alik!! wow!!! waduuh... i got so stress.. we walked to the pondok and lpak..
while walking to the pondok.. the memories of acai n boy steaming the other dae flashes thru my mind.. dat was da very day where buddy got together. steam same2.. bual jiwe2!! hais....
we got to the pondok den boy staraight walked off to the fitness station..

The fitness station was the very place where acai and boy steam same2 sampai illusion.. that all happen b4 me and wani got into the picture.. wad i heard was dat they really had so much fun dat very particular day.. Boy sat down n kept staring blankly into the air.. i guess he must be flashing back all those sweet memories uh?? i really felt so lost sak.. i sat infront of him n kept looking at him.. i noe dat sth is bothering him.. bt he just dun wanna let it all out! Suddenly.. wen i asked saed.. (" eh takmo ni mcm lar.. nafis yg aku knal tak emo2 ni mcm siak!!").. he stared at me n saed.. ("aku dah bkn nafis yg dulu.. aku dah bruba") wadduhh!! i became so tension sak.. haiz.. i so felt like crying sak.. when i saed sth abaout acai.. He saed that HE DUN HAF A BUDDY ANIMORE!! wah!! dat part.. tears waere already in his eyes.. haihs... i felt so dissapointed lar.. den he suddenly told cik kadir that today will b his last time here.. cus he need some time alone to chg.. haihs.. im glad dat he's willing to change for the better.. maybe.. dis is the only way for him to make acai realise how much dissapointed he is with acai.. maybe its bcos of money matters too... bt.. only god noes wads going on... haihs.. both of us kept quiet all the wae.. stared at the surrounding which brings us memories.........

Bt somewhere somehow.. as days goes by.. i started to realise sometg.. We started to show our true colours dat makes us DRIFTING APART.. dat really hurts.. i just dun noe y.. bt it just kept me wondering.. is my presence with wani changing their BUDDY relationship?? Maybe ever since acai got himself a gf.. he got no PRIVATE TIME with boy uh?? i dun noe.. wad i noe was dat the 4 of us just cudnt click with each other.. it really seems dat everytg is going so wrong lar..is it bcoz of money that brought us apart.. or.. is it bcoz of my flings with boy dat made acai chg so much?? or is it bcoz of acai hafing a gf n had not much time for his onli buddy.........
It all left hanging there.. none of us knew wads da actual prob is... wad i really hope is dat someday.. the 4 of us will reunite back.. i really miss the past.. the day we all started so smoothly.. till now... it haf been a fruitful journey n i really njoy myself very much.. thankks guys!!! love u all truck loads!!!

As for Boy.. i pray hard dat shazlin's parents will accept u for hu u are.. n i really hope dat u wll succeed chaging into a better person n get your goals acheived!! U haf found your true group of friends n i hope they cud make u feel more appreciated!! i really pray for ur happiness n hope dat we will meet some dae soon.. misses!!

As for Wani.. i noe many tghs haf been going on between u n acai.. bt i hope u cud cherish him.. cus it seems like u are the onli person left top take care of him after boy step back.. what eva happen between u n me will b kept secret.. u dun worry.... love u gf!

ACai... i just hope dat one dae u will wake up n be more wiser.. u cant carry on this attitude for life.. find a stable job n support urself.. cherish those with u noe then its too late.. trust yourself n dun listen to wad ppl sae!

Gerrek lar!

2008-07-21T04:50:00.005+08:00

Halluu!!! Lil Miss SUNshine is back in da house!!!
yehh!! hahha. aniwae!! sorry for nt updating for quite some time..
been very busy lately..
my schedule haf been so pack till i didnt even haf the time to blogg! wadduhh!
bt no worriess!! coz.. im back! hahha.

Well! i got so much tghs to share!
First up......
My holidae trip... it was awesome!
I had so much fun n laughter..
Although it was just a 4 day trip, i had so much fun n really enjoyed myself tau!
It was a memorable one.. i learned so much from the trip itself..
Looking at all those kampong kids.. Kecian dorg..
Sometimes i wonder how do they actually live in such some atap houses..
hmm.. it kept me wondering lar..
I really enjoyed the trip so much eventhough i was HOME SICK the last day..
hahha. i was really missing SINgapore.. hahha.

First day..
we check in hotel indah..
woohh.. Great.. the room was huge lar..
Bt we had to share the queen size bed.. Sorry acai! haha.
Before eating,we had a couple of cups already..
Therefore my stomach really hurts went i had my dinner..
shit sia.. After dinner..
Went karaoke!! woohhuuu!! GERREKK lar!
I sang my hearts out and yar!! i had so much laughter..
dah mabok!! kecoh!! sembarang hembus jer lyric!! hahha.
mana nak dpt shida karaoke siol!! hahaha.
Kecoh siax!! 3hrs of karaokeing..
3hrs of drinking..
went back to room.. continue drinking..
drank non stop till.......
i started Vomiting like a merlion!
Hahah. It really feels like shit sak!
my stomach hurts n my head is spinning ard..
wah!! buih tahan uh!!
i spent the nite in da toilet vomiting..!!
cant really sllep! shit sak!. hahha.
dats where i really realise dat i shudnt haf drank so muchh..
hahaha. Get a few hrs of sleep n in da morning..
Had to get our butts up!! haiz.. TIRED!!!!..

2nd day.. got my hair done..
Acai went massaging..
went ard SHOPPING!! haha.
We had a very hard time looking for an hotel Last minute!!
Fuck siax! all the hotels were fully booked!!
shit!!! we spent hours in looking for a room sak.. haiz..
Finally.. THANK GOD!!! we foung the very last room at Hotel Libra..
naseb sak!!! if not.. i dun noe where we are gonna sleep siax!
Well the room wasnt as great as the first one..
Bt nah!! its okey afterall!!
Acai was drunk.. he turned in early..
I ended up watching tv alone!!!
mangkok ajer! hahaha...
Morning.. Overshot!!! hahha. Overslept lar!.

3rd dae!!
Luckily we had such a great sleep last nite sak.. hmm.
we check out..
went for breakfast..
Played pool.. SHOPPING!! Karaoke again..
We were busy njoying ourself till we forgot to book the tickets home!!!
shit!!! We were already short of money to book in a hotel..
DEAD LAR!!!!! Im already HOME SICK by then!!!!
My dad called up.. Nagging!! FUCK LAR!!!!
last resort... we had to spent a nite at KAMPONG!!
ouh my god!!! hahha.
we spent a nite at abg ady's place..
Ouh gosh.. wad made me cant sleep was the FLYING LIPAS!!!!!
Fuck sak!! dats my onli GREATES ENEMY sak.. haihs..
I spent da whole night up just to look out for dat damn INSECT!!!!
haiyyoo...!!!! n Wads worst was..
I got the chance to see LIVE chickens got slaughtered INFRONT of me!!!!!
Den fry it.. n Eat it!!!!!!! damn!!!!! hahha...

4th day..
Finally!!!! its Monday Morning!! n yar!! its time for me to GO BACK SINGAPORE!!!!!
yehhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!! i was so damn happy lar... hahhha..
Gerreekk lar!!! hahha. i somiss on-ing my hp!! n its like!! finally!! hahha.
Got the singapore Reception.. My hp was beeping non stop!!
wohhuU!! jammed with so many msges!! Sorry guys!
Went straight home!!! BAM!!! Slept till da next morning!! hahha.

***Thanks to Acai!!! i had so much fun n laughter.. u haf been a great companion!! thanks for taking good care of me n tolerating all my nonsense!! thanks for looking after me n sacrifisng ur nite when i was drunk!!! hhaha. love u idiot!!!***

Pictures of the GERREK moments!

2008-07-21T04:17:00.012+08:00

im like so home sick sak!!! soo miss SINGAPORE!! haha

hey!! im a lil tipsy oready shia!

my one n only KIN!! love u idiot!!

its all about LIL MISS SUNshine!!

born to b cousins..

tourist yar!!

the toilet was nice!!! hahha.

at karaoke!

carlsberg was the only drink for them!!

sweet tak kiter??

after my hair-do.

ouh gosh!! gonna miss my hair!!! ==((

finally!!! its SINGAPORE!

drink for all u can!! its cheap!! hahaha
(bt i tink dats my very last one!!! i felt so sick after dat!!)

gangster jalanan!

"keponakan" a word in indon for 'NIECE'

i didnt realise taking ds pic.. hahhaa

acai!! lets sing our hearts out man!!! yyeeh!

sweet me!!

abg Sdare n Me!

HAPPie HAPPie!!

its karaokeing TIME!

mcm minah tak jadi! haha

in a CRAMP lift!! hahah

Sweet Lil Miss SUNshine!!

happy Family!

preman!

like dey sae!! its happy family!! yeh!

ShidAndy

COUSINS!!

dats our cousin too... angel is her name!

tell u sth!!! The maggie dat he's eating is damn DELICIOUS sak!!!

Happy PEOPLE!!

the SHADES couple!

all about us!!

carlsberg PYRAMID

we love each other!!

CHEERS!!!

NOTHinG CAN BREAK US APART!! DAT INCLUDES U BITCH!!!!

miss my PRETTY BOY!

Loving Couple!!

Hotel Indah

yehh!!! lets sing man!!

Acai Unggu!! (like real onli!! hahha)

im back!! yeah!!

2008-07-03T01:17:00.009+08:00

Finally. Im back. Yeah! Haha. It haf been a busy n tiring week for me siax. Hav been w0rking like hell. Juz to save up for my holiday trip dis friday! Yeeh! Gerek pe! Jus cnt wait 4 it sak. Hahaha.

Sorry la gf,i cnt f0llow u to kl. Cuz i've oready janji my family uh. Haiz. How i wish i cud go lah. Sorry!!

Well,life haf been s0 hapening dz days. Haha. Despite of the hardw0rk,i did get to njoy too. Haha. Gerrekk! So much things haf been happening!

Firstly,boncet's 17 birthday surprise was successful. It all went sm00thly. Im sure he was damn sh0cked lah. Haha. It was all planned. Cik kadir did j0in us too. Happening d0k. Hahaha. We got to drink,n got to shake of c0urse! Haha. S0rry acai! Well. I got a new friend! Fahmi. Same species. Jam punye! Haha. Kidding lah! Till n0w,i stil owe him his birthday present. Die lah! Haha.

Next up. I've nt been h0me lately. Have been hanging out wit acai n boncet at west c0ast. Always at p00l playing da ph0t0hunt. Melekat sak kat machine tu. Haha. Its like so challenging lah. Tryin to beat the high sc0re. Hahaha. Gerrekk!

N gues wad? My family haf decided to rent my r00m. S0t giler sak aku! Bingit giler! I realy dun feel like going back sak. C0rked up gila siax. Even the gas in my hus haf been disc0nnected! Fucked up sak! So fed up. Haiz. The other day,i quarel wit my fucking sis. She's really such a pain in my ass siax. I juz dun n0e wad she haf been telling my uncle til he called me da other day n saed dat n0 0ne wans me. Wow! Dats juz great rite! Thanks al0t man!

W0rk's like shit. They haf been treating me like a slave. Im like da only regular left n they are taking me f0rgranted! Ouh g0sh. Juz dun feel like g0ing back to w0rk sak. Rasa realy sux. Bt unf0rtuanetly,the staff dat is c0ming in smua gerek2. Getting m0re malay. Singap0rean malay lah. Haiyo. Wanna leave ols0,gt to tink twice. Haiz. C0nfuse lah saye!!

Recently,i've realise s0methg. Hanging out wit acai n boncet realy made a great difference in life.i was nv dis happy ever. Im like njoying ever sec0nd of it lah. They are da only one hu i cud turn to. They lighten up my life n made me so happy. I didnt n0e dat acai care s0 much 4 me. Juz like my elder br0tha. Well. Im touched. B0ncet,he was always there 4 me. We may b very cl0se bt. N0 strings attached. We are juz buddies. Can nv be t0gether lah. Cuz i treat him like my own siblings too. Dun w0rry..

Kk. I got to go bed early. Got to wake up early t0m0r0w. Gud nyte! Sweet dreams everybody!

its all about me!! ShiDa

nafis 17th birthdae bash!!

abg sdare tersyg!! yeh!!

the dudes n the babes!!

170608

all about us..

shida GERREEKK!!

my onli BUDDY!!

handsome kn abg sdare aku!! any takers??

buddies for life!!

happy birthdae!!

acai n boy

all grown up liao..

brotherhood

buddies babe!

boy n Fahmi

fahmi lah..

oppss.. wads dat!

happie birthdae nizam!!

shida giler!!

yeh!! aku dapat cake!!

sweet kan..

my only buddy gerrekk!!

kawan kami..

new found friend

cute lar tu??

all alone in an empty world.. haihs..

khai.. diana.. fit!!

2008-06-13T19:27:00.001+08:00

hello2!!!

hahha. was celebrating nizam's birthday last nite..
well.although it wasnt a huge celebration,
bt still we had so much fun..
we laugh our hearts out sak..
kekek giler per.
we had so much fun till i had a cut on my lips.
waduhh! painful siax!!

hhaa. tomorrow i will b working at 11am!
shit man!! gonna b damn tired sak..
mampos! wish me luck uh!!
gotta feeling dat work gonna b hard tomorrow..
mati lah aku kan..
haihs.. bt haf to lah..
cus celebrating boy bdae on mondae..
haiyyya...

im gonna home soon and yar..
acai doesnt allow me to go back..
haya.. dun noe lah how..
hmm. kk. got to go..

misses.. DIANA.. hahahha

sorry..

2008-06-10T18:47:00.003+08:00

well. im like sorry lah to use dat phrase..
well. no.. i wasnt pretending on dat dae..
i was having so much fun..
i blog that post bcos i just wan u guys to noe wad i've been keeping inside..
serious shit.. im really not pretending..
i also tot dat we are okey..

dah lah.. i dun wan to continue blogging abt this animore..
i just hope dat we cud b okey after this..
marche?? hmm. wait after july aites???
insyallah.. hahaha.

take care peeps!

Friend?? what is actually Friends??

2008-06-09T06:05:00.002+08:00

Well. u noe wad?? sometimes.. i cant b bothered by friends nowadays.
y?? cuz.. its not dat i dun trust friends. its just dat sometimes friends do BITCH around.
yar.. i noe how much shit i've done. those fucking lies dat i've told.
no one is perfect. im bad. yesh.. i admit..
but.. a true friend would come straight to my face if there's sth they are unhappy about.
well. im open enuf. n i'll appreciate it if they tell me rite to my face..
nt by blogging n let the whole world noe and yar.. bitch abt me behind my back..
sorry for all the shit that i've done.. bt nv in my freaking life did i call my friends all sorts of names.. like hello. im not upset or hurt.. im just dissapointed.
if she can come up to me telling me dat yar she does talk behind my back,y not u??
at least.. she gave me a very good reason.. she saed dat i've changed alot..
i can accept dat.. but u?? all u cud is just blog and let eveyone noe..
well boy. i read ur tag board.. i think almost everyone noes abt it..
wooh. thanks man.
if u dun like me,i dun need u to pretend infront of me..
as for me.. i dun hold any grudges on anione. to me its like over.
once u confess,i accept it and im okey with it oready..
bt y does it seems like u haf to brag about it??
u may not sae or show.. bt u wrote dat in ur blog..
let me ask u sth.. have i ever discriminate u on the net?? never sak..
bt y me??
aku tau aku jahat. penghianat. pembohong. nv appreciate others..
tapi.. u cud tell me personally.. dats all..
im not saying dat i hate u or wad.
we haf been friends since young. we haf gone thru thick and thin from scratch.
its impossible 4 me to just let the 7yrs go. i admit its my mistake..
i admit.. im glad dat finnally everytg is out. im glad. thanks so much..
im sorry if i post ds abt u.. really sorry..
i just hope dat after ds,u cud msg me or call me up if i've dissapoint u or sth..
nt by posting out a post abt me.. bt just come up to me.. i wudnt eat u up..

and btw.. there was a period of time wen i suddenly went missing from bp..
its not dat i wen to find new friends or enjoy myself.. bt serious shit.. i was busy working..
nt for spending my pay at guys.. but to pay my freaking dad's debt.....
i noe how much i owe u guys.. bt i'll promise to pay u back one dae..

i noe i cant prove how sorry i am.. bt i guess dat it takes time for me to gain ur trust..
give me some time.. one dae. everythg will be proven..
u guys take care aites.. i just hope after dis post,they will not b any more arguements among us yar!! im really sorry for all my fucking mistake.. hope to b forgiven.. =)

everytg is so different nowadays.

2008-06-09T03:27:00.002+08:00

well. im like suppose to b at west coast shei.
but.. lazy lah wanna travel.
kecian abg sdare aku sorg2 kat umah.
sorry eh acai!
hhehehe. i guess u must b sleeping till now uh.
hmm. dun worry.
will b bringing u out tomorrow k cayang.
hahaha..

i had so much fun last friday..
although i was pissed off at first,
bt it got better afterall.
hahhaa.
thanks to dat badot sial (nafis) lah..
always making a fool out of everyone we walked past siaxx!.
bastard sakk.

i felt so touched lah.
when buddy meets buddy and confess.
its like. it haf been so long since i saw acai smile..
bt dat very dae.
everytg went perfectly okey..
he was smilling widely..
thank god lar..hmm.

saturday.. work was okey lah.
wasnt dat bad.
its just dayt bcos of my new shoe,
i've go blister.
haiz.. pain u noe!! stress sak..
Captain Azli was fun indeed..
he was so hippies lah.
lalallala. funny lah dia!
hahahha

kk. gonna bed soon..
nites babes!!

pictures of us..

2008-06-09T03:03:00.003+08:00

meet my new bestie..

the b.s gang!! hahaha

my besti n his sweet GURLFRIEND!!

just a fwen lar!

still single u noe!!

he miss his baby!

nafiShida

sweet people thinks alike

we care..

well. life still got to move on...

2008-06-05T15:39:00.004+08:00

finally.. the truth is out... woohh!!
im so happy lah..
i knew dat someday i will come to noe it..
phew.. thanks2..
like i saed.
i dun really give a damn.
say what u wanna say..
i dun care..
it doesnt matter.

happy happy

2008-06-03T17:05:00.004+08:00

wooh!! im finally back..hahha.

after so long of working like hell.

now its time for me to take a break lah..hmm.
life haf been terribly busy for me.haf been working like mad dog.

from morning to late nite..hahhaa.

had to lah.coz i had to pay for my house bills..haiz.

didnt get to enjoy my pay siax.

everytg goes to my house bills..nt even a single sen to spent.

wtf!!! hahhaha.my dad haf been making noise coz i didnt give him any money.

bt wad can i do???i dun haf any extra.n i still haf alot to pay..ouh gosh..

haihs..life is so damn hard..

i was too busy with work till i had to b a distance from my lpaking friends.

well i do miss the lpaking gang..

Diana,paula,syahril,amin,rawk,adzan..everyone lah..

each time they msg me asking to join them lpak,

i will alwaes b at work..haihs. stress pe aku??

im sure they are having so much fun n yar..

i guess im missing out all the fun uh??wadduh!! sorry guys!!

i'll find some time for u guys k???miss u guys lots!!!!

A new beggining for me..lately..

i've been staying over at cik imah's place.

im having some probs at home.

dats y i decided to b away awhile lah.well.

i had so much fun there.

njoying every sec of it.acai is alwaes dere to make me laugh.

care abt me like his own siblings.even my siblings dun treat me like dat..

im touched wen acai told me dat he care for me.n im da only kin left for him.

each and everyday.b4 and after work,he wud msg me..

asking if i've eaten or not. what im doing.

hows my dae. and ask me to take care..wooh..

im touched lah..i tot dat no one cares abt me oready..

he really made my dae.and i can c dat he really cares abt me..

well Cai.. i love u too dear!

Next..i haf been starting to b close with nafis.yar..

i noe how acai disagree with me being wit his own buddy..

im really sorry to dissapoint him.bt. me and nafis.

we are just close friends.yar.

i noe how intimidate we can be. bt trust me..

we are just friends flinging ard..hahhaha. well.

he haf alwaes been there for me wen i need someone to talk to.

he wud make me laugh even wen i dun even wanna smile..

we are close..im like his next buddy..hahha.

although sometimes i feel dat we are like a couple,

bt still i wud think twice..y?? cus he got a beautiful and sweet gf..

he loves his gf alot. bt hmm. dun noe lah.

no matter wad. da two of us can nv b together..

hahhha.bt i love him like how i love acai.. hahha.

thanks for being a great friend dear!!

my Family???
It seems dat n0 0ne is there to care 4 me.

No one sh0ws that they l0ve me.

Till i even t0t dat n0 0ne knew dat i exsist.

Well,mayb its bcuz i seld0m get any attenti0n 4rm my family.

Its like n0 0ne cares abt me.

They haf their own family n hafing so much fun t0gether every weekend.

Didnt even ask me out.

From there,i felt so left out.

It seems like i dun haf ani0ne else.

All they n0e is juz to sc0ld me 4 mixing da

wr0ng c0mpany n wasting my time wit friends rather den w0rking full time.

0uh g0sh. I w0nder if they haf ever spare a t0t 4 my feelings.

I juz feel dat im n0 l0nger their y0unger sister.

I realy felt s0 left out. Haiz. Is dz wad they call family??

What is family actually. . I realy envy l00king at a huge happy family t0gether.

At t0wn,at the beach,juz hanging out t0gether hafing dinner. Wooh.

Wen i started mixing wit the bp peeps.

Well. I enjoy myself.

Alth0ugh wad they did wasnt a healty activity,its fun.

Its nt as if i j0in them doing all th0se thgs.

Bt i juz slack wit them. They realy made me so cheerful.

Im s0 happy weneva i lpak2 with them.

Bt still,my siblings were againts it. Cuz y?

Cuz they are afraid dat i might get influence by them.

Dat means dat they dun even trust me!!

If i were to easily get influence, by n0w,i wud oready b like them.

Bt y didnt i? Bcuz im old enuf to tink.

I n0e wads rite n wads wr0ng. Im juz mixing.

Bt im n0t involve in their activities!! Y cnt dey juz trust me??

Next up,radin!! We haf been friends 4 alm0st a year!

He's very cl0se to me. Even my dad!! N yar. He got license.

He drives often. Bring me out. T00k care of me. Bt gues wad?

My br0tha was againts it! Y?

Bcuz he's driving n he's afraid dat sth mite hapen to me.

He wasnt sastified wen my other family t0ld him abt radin!

Ouh my god! Wad was he thinking???

Juz cus he drives, my br0tha was againts it? Wtf!

Mite as well he l0ck me up in a cage rite?

Dun let me mix wit anyone! Always judging a b00k by its c0ver!

Nv ever tot abt hys sister happiness.

Like hell0! Im 19! No l0nger 15.. I n0e h0w to take care of myself!!

My sis n uncle. . Ouh g0sh.

An0ther huge pain in my ass!

Fr0m young,i was nv given any chance to ch00se wad i like to do!

Everytg,they wil ch00se 4 me.

N i dun haf the right to sae n0! Siak uh.

Its my life n i got da right to ch0se wads best 4 me!

I wan to lead my life. I dun wan ppl to lead it 4 me!

im old enuf to think and lead my life..aku ada menyusah kan korg pe??

did i even ask a single cent from u?????

y must u interfier in my life??

u guys haf been pressurizing me from young.

bt wad do u guys get????am i successful now??????????

im living in a hard life bcoz u guys choose it for me!

u force me to take office skills..

wen i dun even wan to b working in dat sector..

now i got the cert..wad do u wan me to do???

force myself to work in office?????wtf!!!!

ONE DAY I MAY BE GONE FOR GOOD.AND DATS THE TIME FOR U GUYS TO REGRET!!!!

Pictures of Us!!

2008-05-19T23:02:00.003+08:00

My new Found Friend

Tino Shida Boy

My two loveable ones

Boy EmO

us @ vivo

Sweet Kan??

Presenting Chivas

Couple Lurb

Misses

Candid

i love ds pic lah.

i love him more then anitg!!

ShidAcai

3 Badot Sial

My SweetHearts!

its so happening!

2008-05-13T21:27:00.008+08:00

well. life haf been very happening for me..

although its nt with my fwens..

i had so much fun with my abg sdare..

hahha..

serious shit.. i am enjoying my life to the fullest siax.

i've nv been this happy b4!!

never in my life i feel so appreciated sak.

we went drinking the other day..

cik kadir blanje. huhu. seronok sak.

we drank till all of us got drunk..

Me,Acai,Cik Kadir,Nafeez,Roy,Wani..

party2 dok kat kdai kopi..

minom chivas...

fuyyy! hahhaha. supporting per uncle ku??

hhehehe.

That very day on the 8 of may till 9 of may.

we drank till we cudnt take it..

it was so fun..

we were so close.

we shared our happiness together and yar..

we tok our probs out too....

till i cried lah..

hahhahha..

I was so touched wen Acai saed dat he really care for me.

he didnt wan anitg to happen to me and yar..

he loves me alot..

he knows dat i seldom get attention from my family..

dats y.. he's always dere for me!

when he saed dat he care for me more den anitg else..

i cried.. i felt so touched..

i was lost for wordsssss..

And yar.. i wanna introduce my new friend..

Nafeez..

hahhha. well. althhough he's only 17, i treat him like my younger bro..

hahahha.

he's like so fun lah..

badot sial.. hahhaha

always makes me laugh like hell..hahha

really funny chap lah he..

hehehhex..

Friends??? well.

hahahha. i just dun care animore..

hahhha.

R-a-n-d-o-m

2008-05-04T18:06:00.005+08:00

Well! guess where i am???
hahha. im at west coast cyber cafe with my abg sdare!
My one and only **ACAi** lah..
hahahha. funny sia!
i came to visit my grandma after kubur just now.
didnt expect him to b in!
hahhha. well. im kinddof close with him lah.
he's like da onli one im closest with.
it haf been like such a long time since we catch up with each other lah.
we got like so much tgs to tok abt.

After so long,finally i got da chance to lek2 with him.
so much tgs haf passed sia.
we became so different.
He was suppose to meet one of this chick @ bp.
i got to find out dat it was JOYCE!!
ouh god!!!
i wad like damn pissed off lah.
i called him back and yar!!
i told him everytg abt dat FAT CHICK la!
She really dumbass sia.
she told my cousin dat she was hot!
Ouh my god!!!!
hahahhhah.

Tak jadi kluar,
we end up going out together.
hahha. like funny like dat.
we got along so well sia.
he asked me to overnite tonite.
i still haven decide yet lah.
how uh??

Ystd,i was suppose to accompany paula.
bt guess wad??
i fell asleep instead!
ouh gosh!
i feel so bad lah!
REALLY SORRY GF!!!

Taufiq..
we had a lil chat last Friday.
well. i did console him.
i saed dat i will pray hard so dat syikin will come back to him.
yar. its true dat i still love him.
bt i just wanna c him happy with someone instead!.
haihs!

-misses..adzan..-

Life like Dis!

2008-04-29T20:51:00.005+08:00

well. so much wrong tgs have been happening in life.
im really lost and i dun noe wad to do.
it seems like everyone is starting to hate me cus of wad happen sia.
i really feel bad after wad haf happen.
its true wad ppl haf been saying.
it takes 2 hands to clap.
and if i haf nt been so nice to him.
tis tgs wudnt happen.
now, i really2 feel so bad.
its like as though bcos of me, it all happen.
ouh gosh. what have i done??
well. wadeva it is.
i noe dat no matter how many times i sae sorry,
it doesnt work.
i just hope dat one fine dae i cn get the two of them back 2gether..
im really sorry guys..

Next up.
life have been such a mess.
i haf not found a proper job.
and my siblings haf been nagging abt it.
ouh my!!
wad am i supposeto do in life sia??
ite cert??? hahha.
can just forget abt it.
i onli scored 1.8.
hahahha. like shit kan??? wooohu...
life really sux siax!

My dad. he haf been making noise abt my damn house.
mcm sial uh die.
he expect me to help him pay for everytg.
mati lah aku!
how am i suppose to survive sak??
he told me to get married and fuck off from my hus.
he thinks wad????
arrrgg!

i so dun noe wad to do in life oready lah..
its better dead sia!!

a dae out with DIANA

2008-04-23T00:54:00.004+08:00

Well. A day out with gf was totally fun. although its just da two of us bt its like we had so much tgs to crap abt lah!! hahha. it haf been so long since we went out together. i had so much fun n laughter.

so much tgs haf been happening n i got so much thgs to blog abt!! its just dat im kinddof busy!!will update soon k soorryy!!

Hey! i miss TaufiQ

2008-04-04T18:23:00.003+08:00

hey. it haf been a week since everytg go wrong.

well. i cnt deny dat i miss u lots.

bt. dere's nth dat i can do.

i tried my very best to avoid u.

tried to forget u as much i cud.

bt tgs doesnt seem to b working.

no matter how i avoid,

he will always b there..

wadduh!

i feel bad lah..

cus of him. i had to paitao diana and gang.

haiz. sorry guys.

bt i haf too.

tgs have to go on..

i got to move on with life.

yeah. its hard.

bt i haf to.

yesh.

i still haf da hearts for him.

everyone noe dat.

bt.

im nt prepared to let him noe.

the very last hug,i did cried.

no matter how he saed dat we still cud b fwens,

i still cant accept da fact...

haiz. im like so Lost sia.

Really sooryyyyy!!

Im Really Very Sorry!!!

2008-04-04T12:20:00.012+08:00

My Pretty BABY BONCET
ShiDA n Ady
The Gurls n The Guys
Happy Moments
ShiDa & Anggun
Look At Her!!! So adorable!!
Moments Of Madness

Past

All Me!!
Fun Times
Family
I Still Love Him
Just Sweet Memories

so much tgs haf been happening to me lately..
Well. recently, i've realised sth.
im just too busy doing nothing these days and i haf been ignoring people around me.
Eversince i started mixing with Diana and gang.
everytg started changing.Yar.
im hafing so much fun.But its just dat..I
m missing people from my past..

Firstly.. GIRLFRIEND PAULA..Well.
im really sorry if i haf been neglecting u these daes.its nt dat i am avoiding you.but its just dat im busy with my life.
well u mite tink dat.yelah.
aku da ada mataer.
mane nak ingat kau??
bt nah!! u're wrong.im nt even spending time with hym.
i just tot of being alone.
SORRY lah if im nt dere by urside.
really sorry.I noe dat u are dissapointed in me.
bt i really dun noe wad got into me.
so much tgs haf happen without realising.n i noe dat im in the wrong.
well.im just SORRY.
i just hope dat one day i cud spent the time with u n catch up yar.
really sorry.
MISS U GURLFWEN!!

Next. My childhood Friend.
u haf been working so damn hard till i didnt even get to c u nowadays.
yeah. i noe dat u are inneed of cash.
bt dun stress out lah.
i really pity u.u work so hard.
bt tgs seems diff for u.
Really sorry for nt being there for u too.
haihs.
tgs chg in just split sec.
i do miss hanging out with u.
dun just keep it to urself.
im always here.. if u need me..
im sorry lah if i've been keeping tgs frm u.
time will tell....
really sorry for all those shit dat i've done.
if there's sth which really hurt u by me.im just sorry....
there will b a day where i hope to spent time with u..
maybe. we can catch tgs up over a dinner..
its on me k????

I saw wan last Saturday.

had a chat with him.

well evrygt went so wrong.

i used to lie so much tgs to him abt my past.

now.i cant even face him.

he must b mad at me for all the wrong tgs dat i've done.

bt i just wan him to noe dat..

i've changed..

i had enuf of all those mistake dat i use to do.

now its time for me to start a new chapter in life,

and move on.

without repeating da same mistake..

dats all..

REALLY SORRY!

Next up..

Really soorry gurl.

i just cant mix with u guys often.

cus. i've promise him saying dat i will leave him with u guys.

he's having so much fun.

n its time for me to back off abit.

its nt dat i will leave u completely.

its just dat i cant be dere wen he's dere u c..

tgs haf chg.

and i hope u cud understn me.

i dun blame u guys for wad haf happen to me..

im the one hu made da wrong move.

perhaps. tgs haf to chg for us..

i cant deny dat i still haf da hearts for him.

bt u shud noe wads going on rite.

tgs just cudnt carry on n.

i haf to put it to an end soon.

u guys take care..

n remember.

that tink which makes u high n happy wud bring damage to your body!!

take care n send my regards to all the peeps..

gonna miss u guys yar..

life haf been in such a mess till

i really dun noe wad to do.

mayb its time.

for me to change.

its true dat i've started chging after my chalet.

bt ppl still cant accept it.

now..

i guess i haf to lead my own life.

forget abt da past and MOVE ON.
Be a better person and..

i guess i haf to learn how to appreciate ppl ard me..

its hard. bt..haihs..

im so lost!

2008-03-29T09:24:00.004+08:00

i just came back with my brother.

we went driving.

to johore. n back to Spore.

well. it was a fun wan.

i did njoy myself.

bt still.

haihs.

still stress over sth..

waduhh.

ystd he came over diana's place.

bt didnt even meet me.

like they were saying.

he's avoiding me.

well. wad can i do??

he haf changed hys no.

i cnt even cntc hym u c??

i just need to tok to hym.

sort tgs out.

nt making a big fuss.

bt i just need a REASON.

is it bcos of hys ex??

i understand dat he still loves hys ex.

bt. wad abt me??\

hu am i to hym??

haihs.

3daes of sweet memories.

can nv i forget.

wad can i do??
hu can i turn to??
he left me all hanging.
wad am i supose to sae??
haiz.

it haf been 6 daes.
n i've nt been sleeping??
siak kan??
i just cudnt get to sleep.
thinking abt all those tgs.
just makes me so arrrg!

im nt mad lah.
bt im just dissapointed
cuz i cudnt get da ans from hym.
wads wrong with telling me da truth??
really hates it wen im left hanging.
without ani answer to da prob.
haihs!!!

i just pray hard dat one dae.
tgs wud work out for us.
i dun mind losing hym.
bt i just need to noe from himself.
dats all....

i really miss hym!!

2008-03-27T22:16:00.002+08:00

i really had a bad dae these few daes!
im like so fucked up.
heartbroken.
pissed off.
dissapointed.
really dun noe how to express myself.

haf nt been sleeping for almost 4 daes!
damnit!
i just feel so lost.
dun noe wad to do.
im missing hym bt. there's nth i can do.
he told me dat he cnt forget abt hys ex.
woohu! thanks!
just feel so small siax!

its just da beggining bt nearing an ending!!
wad the fuck kan???
im feeling so sick rite now.
bt there's no one to care.
thanks to diana. cuz she accompanied me da whole evening.
ouh gosh.
wen will all this end???
im so sick.

i gtg!! just hope dat one fine day,
he will come up to me once again.

I MISS HYM!

..Family Gathering @ East Coast..

2008-03-24T15:17:00.007+08:00

er! haha.. here are some pics!! njoy yar!

My Chalet.

2008-03-23T20:39:00.012+08:00

Hey. Im back! Wooh.

I see hate tags. Surprising uh!

Hehex. Nvm. Hate taggers are warmly welcome.

I may nv n0e hu they are.

N i wudnt b surprise if they happen to b any of my fwens.

Haha. Dah seas0n lah. I've experience m0re than that.

So. Hate tags are nth to me!
Well. N0w.

Let me share abt what happen during da 14-16 march 2008.

Wooh. A heartbreaking one.

i was so excited as days grew close to my chalet.

Hoping dat it wud b a fun,enjoyable n happening one.

To my surprise.

I didnt turn out well lah.

first day. .i had to travel all al0ne wit all the tgs.

Amin? Paitau! Syahril,he saed dat he had to collect hys pay.

Wadeva okey. It started out well lah.

Wit my family ard. It was fun. Soon later,paula came.

To my surprise. Sulhan came d0wn too.

Huhuhu. Shocked sak.

Didnt expect hym to c0me as we dun realy n0e each other.

Bt. Overall. He's okey! He's fun n friendly lah.

Hehex! Cool ape die! Whahaha.

Then came zu n ily and zul.

They were my only guest.

Cn u imagine dat? My only guest??

Waduh! Stress pe aku?

At ard 10+ syahrill came wit k0k weng n ina.

Sulhan n zul had to go back. Wad a waste.

Haiz=( aniway sulhan,thanks 4 cuming yar.

Hmmp! K0k weng did all the bbqing. So cool uh.

Being serve by a captain. Hehex! Thanks.

Then came ina's bf. (the satay man.) hehehex?

He was inchrg of the bbq the wh0le nite.

Suddenly,everyone came one whole sh0t.

Aku stress. Tak tau mane nk layan si0l.

Pressure pe aku! Waduh!

The dancers came d0wn too. I so miss them l0h. Haha.

So glad to c them siax.

Fazli came to drop by.

He was sitting in the room wit syahril n paula.

Wooh! Thanks ehk?

R0y came wit 3 of his friends.

Wah! Roy tau!

Lelaki yg tk perna aku jumpe dtg chalet aku!
C00l kape! Azy came d0wn with bdk2 bp. Wah

Tu lagi. Bkn nye rapat ngan aku.

Fazal came wit hisyam and nuwan.

im like so touched lah. Hehex. Khairwan join us too.

They b0ught me a bdae gift.

Turqilla,white n red wine n a champange. Wow!

Aku dapat pop champange dok! Its like so wow lah!

Bt unfortuanetly.

My 'close' friends. My 3 VIP didnt get to watch me pop the champange.

Wad a waste.

I was busy entertaining all my guest at the bbq pit while my VIP'S were happy doing facial upstairs. Woohu. Great uh?

Its my chalet bt. They are like njoying themselve.

No offence guys!! Im juz dissap0inted lah k?

Well! Jus forget abt it. It makes me irrit tinkin back abt it.

Wadeva okey.

then fazli sent us to white sand nye 7-11 Khairwan brought me to 7-11 wit fazal.

They b0ught me absolute v0dka.

At that p0int of time,i was already abit tipsy uh.

Hehex. Well. Wad to do? I was pissed off mah. Haiyo.

Came back bbq pit,c0ntinue drinking.

I open da turqilla n absolute.
Drank turqilla wit sprite n abs0lute wit ribenna n canberry.

Wow! Gone if juz a c0uple of cups siax! Haha. I realy nj0yed myself siax!

I was damn drunk la shei. I tried to c0ntr0l infr0nt of my bro.

Bt i stumble here n dere. Kekek pe! Mamp0s.

Hehex. I feel bad shei c0z i didnt layan azy n gang n r0y sak.

S0rry guys. I tink my bro spotted dat i was drunk. Shit man!!

Hehex. After drinking. Everyone started to lpak in da r00m.

I sent hisyam h0me. I t0k to hym n i cried sak. I really2 cried.

Y? I dun n0e. I juz feel so sad! Haha. Haiz. Paisey siax!

Went back to the pit,suddenly..

To my surprise,paula n syahril came d0wn shouting at me.

Sh0cked pe aku! I was damn fucked up.

I was drunk,my head hurts n they c0me telling me things tat realy pissed me off.

I went up,c0nfr0nted fazal.

My br0 fucked hym. I was pissed off!

In the end, both of them (paula n fazal) left the chalet.

I went breakfast wit fazal,khairwan n lala. Feel so bad siax. Wooh. Gerek pe!

I was freaking pissed off till i chased everyone out of the r00m.

Leaving me lala n syahril.

Second day - m0rning,syahril had to leave for his dance c0mp.

Leaving me n lala. Ouh gosh! We slept till 6pm! Imagine dat?

N n0 one came! Except for zila. Wow! Seronok pe!

At ard 7plus,alex came. Paula came back. We lek2 in the r00m.

At 8. Suradi came! All the way,we kekek2 in the r00m only.

Sec0nd dae was fun! Although n0 one came bt it was fun.

I realy had a lot of laughter siax. Thanks guys!

Suradi n alex really made my dae! Huhuhu!

Gues wad time we start bbqing? Hahaha.

At 1am! Hahaha. Kekek kn?

Ppl are all packing up,ready to go to bed bt here we are setting up for bbq.

Hahaha. At 2plus,diana,khai,abg dd n rawk came. Well.
Thank god cus the fud was all stil there. Haiyo.

Hmm.they left at abt 4plus. We pack up,went up n off to bed!
Damn freaking tired n shagged! Paula?
Sorry ehk gurl,cuz i didnt get to accompany u go breakfast?

I was damn tired uh! S0rry. Hmm. At 10.

Everyone was supp0se to get up n start packing. Bt.

We are stil in bed! Hehex! We lek2,chill2,take our own time.

Take picture, laugh2. At 11am,check out! Hahahahahaha!

Dats h0w it all ended! Although a big mistake happen.

It was a fun wan indeed. I've learnt my less0n.

Nt to invite th0se attitude prob friends over cuz they really spoil my dae

Haiyo!!!

2008-03-10T04:02:00.003+08:00

Wow!! time now is already 4am.
and im still infront of the screen??
Mampos!
have to off it soon b4 dat tiger wakes up siax!
hahahha.
aniwae! i haf to blog first.

Well. my weekend was okey lah.
was working as per usual.

School haf ended!
hurray!
at last siax!
hahaha.
but im hafing exams on tues and thurs.
die lah.
haven study siak!
hahhha.

Hey! i will b very busy ds week.
preparing for my Chalet.
Yaeh! at last.
da dae is really coming!!!
i just cant wait for my chalet.
Like paula saed!
ONLI TRUE FWENS WILL COME!!!!
hahahahha.
hu cares aniwae!

Ouh Yar! one more thg!
i started to feel irritated as daes goes by.
being sarcastic is nt da wae to solve any prob.
stop pretending okey!

2008-03-07T03:45:00.004+08:00

I was at my brotha house the whole day.
haiz. borting siax!
just now. we had a conversation in the kitchen.
he aws asking me abt the chalet thingy and ask who will b coming.
i named them all.
then he ask.
"kau tak jempot wan??"
im like lost for a moment n saed.
"nah. he will b going ns on dat day. wad a pity"

Suddenly. he saed sth dat really makes me wonder till now.
he saed dat. among all my friends. he likes wan.
he saed dat wan looks very plesant and helpful.
he haf the innocent look dat really pleased my brotha.
my brotha and wan are so close.
i nv had a friend hu gets along with my siblings.
even when we are quarelling or we seperated.
he would still contact my brotha and ask hym for a soccer match.
well. dats good lah.

I was totally shocked when he saed tis.
"wan is a very nice guy. he loves to help ppl and care for others.
although he looks like a mat arep, he still noes how behave infront of an elderly.
dalam byk2 kawan kau. die sorg lah yg paling aku berkenan.
i can see that he is those types of friends dat tak akan lupe members punyer.
im really secured wheneva u goes out with him.
cos i noe dat no matter wad he can take care of u.
he haf been with us for 2yrs and i can rely rely on hym to take care of u!"

Wah. dat part. i became total blank.
i was really lost for words and i feel bad for like ignoring him.
is he really a nice person??
or was i just stupid to spent my money on hym.
bt if he haf bad intention.
y must he still b so nice to my family??
even my uncle loves me hanging out with hym.
haiyo..
none of my family members knew dat we are no longer contacting.
wad if my brotha happen to noe??
wad wud he say??
shit siax!

i still remember when my siblings went to bangkok leaving me all alone in spore for 3 days. wan accompanied me for the whole 3 daes. bring me to clarke quay to watch a soccer match. bring me walk trhu the club area and showed me the nite life there.we sat at the clarke quay river and talk abt the world. it was like soo sweet of hym siaz!

Nxt week he is going to ns. 2yrs.
wooh. i really dun noe wad to do.
CONFUSED KAPER!!!

hello hello!

2008-03-06T19:40:00.002+08:00

hello hello!

alamak!! im ordering food for my chalet n i realised dat i've got not enuf!!

mampos!! my chalet is a week from now n yet.

i've got not enuf!

haiya! die lah like dat!!

haiz.

there's so much thgs to settle.

the food money.

my expenses for da chalet.

the cab money.

my bdae dress somemore!!

wah!! buih tahan uh like dat!!!

shit siax! feeling so stucked up.

im working onli tomorrow n saturdae. den sundae??

mati lah aku!!!!

arrg!

someone..

please help me!!!

im totally BROKE!!!

SHIT!!!

2008-03-05T01:05:00.008+08:00

siak nye syahril!! hahahhaa

buruk per aku?? hahaha
lawah kan gf aku!
thanks alot gf! for the surprise!!!

dun kill me!!! i just turn 19 ok!! hahaah

kene saboh npk??

thanks for the gifts gf!! love u lots!

Tazy represents me being fierce

Eeyore represents me being lazy!!

thanks for the surprise guys!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME..
HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY TO SHIDA..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!

(at last, im finally over it n guess wad?? im finally 19!!! feweettt!!)

Guess wad?? its totally different this year.

usually. midnite to my bdae i wud be home all alone.

crying while counting down to my bdae.

but this time round..

woohh!!

noe wad??

Paula bought me a cake n wad really touches me was...

she invited syahrill over too!!

i didnt expect her to surprise me lah.

it was so sweet of them.

to be with me on my bithday.

making me feel dat im nt alone n yar.

i still do haf fwens hu really care abt me!!

thanks alot PAULA n SYAHRILL!!

huhuhu!

it really touched me wen u guys were there to b with me.

on my birthday!!!!!!

YEAH!!!!

thae cake n presents were so sweet. i really love it.

nah its okey lah syahrill. takda present pon tak pe.

ur presence really mean alot to me lah!!!

hahahahhaah.

Next up.

Wad hurt me most was when syahril gave me watch dat video.

it was a video abt my gf!!

it really touches me alot n i really cried after that video.

da fact dat she's there suffering n im here Enjoying!!!

it really hurts me seeing her in dat video.

it was so sweet of them n yar!i miss my gf!!

she cudnt join us for my surprise!!

bt i really hope dat she will b dere for my chalet!!!

Gurl!!

be strong n pull it thru!!

i will b dere with u todae
i'll pray hard dat everytg will b okey!!
I LOVE U GF!!!!!!

Its so happening kan!!!

2008-03-03T11:32:00.005+08:00

LIFE!!!

sian arh!!

so much things haf been happening!!!

so much things on my mind. in my heart.

wooh!! haiz.

Firstly!! 2 more days to my fucking birthday!!

hurrray!! dats just freaking great.

i just hate ds feeling every year.

i so dun look forward for my birthday.

Y??

Its simply because. its da same every year!

i will b all alone sitting at hum counting down seconds to my bdae!!

ouh gosh!

im just so pissed off siax!

i was looking forward to my birthday celebration early ds year.

bt. not animore. haiyoo.

Who is going to come my chalet also i dun noe siax!

looks like i just haf to stay there all by myself.

eat the food n also cut the cake all alone lah! wadduh!

FUCK!!!

Next-up!

it haf been 2yrs since me n wan became friends.

woow! surprising.

no matter how much we hate each other. no way for us to bcome enemy siax.

its hard to get rid of hym as he is more like a brother to me lah.

no matter how huge the prob is or how long we quarell.

there will b a day where we wud give in.

just bcos of my BROTHA n all my nieces n nephew.

haiyoo.

aniway!!

happy 2yrs Friendship anniversary uh!!!

Next. ouh yar. sthg just happen to me recently.

dat really make me change.

Ystd my friend saed.

"it doesnt matter if u are good or bad. Friends who can really accept u for who u are are those hu will appreciate u later!"

wooh!

Wad does dat mean??

It doesnt paid to be good. no matter how good u are to dat someone.

it doesnt mean dat dat someone will b good to you!

thats true lah.

Being concern n care abt someone is also wrong.

Y?? i just dun noe.

well. wad i know is dat.

i admit im bad.

im selfish and i easily irritate ppl.

im also those who is very sarcastic and rude.

all the thgs dat i've done is wrong.

bt dat sumone cud haf change me.

yesh! its true dat im difficult. very Stubborn.

bt. nvm. its hard now.

i just feel dat its okey.

i wudnt die aniway.

i just wanna live my way of life as long as im happy.

dat wud b just great!! woohh!!!

FUCK OFF~~~~

Work!! wow!! thank god. for the past 3 days. work haf been easy for me!

Buffet all the way!!

great! nxt week. also buffet!! bt the captain like shit onli lah! hahahha.

next weel will b my last week doing dinner!! im gonna shift to morning already.

yeah! hahaha.

School! hahha. guess wad!! 2 more weeks and im off!! hurray!!!

im no longer schooling!! weewit!! now i can work n earn my money! yesh uh!!!

hahahha.

Lastly! i miss my gf PAULA!! pantat lah! asyik kat bedok jer die!!!

babi btol lah! hahhha. stupid matin!! steal my gf!! hahaha. bt!!!

im gonna haf her all mine for my chalet!! yeepi!!!

i just love dis song

2008-02-28T16:42:00.002+08:00

i simply love this song so much.

it brings me alot of meaning siax!

Do You lyrics

Maybe this decision was a mistake.

You probably don't care what I have to say.

But it's been heavy on my mind for months now.

Guess I'm trying to clear some mental space.

I would love to talk to you in person.

But I understand why that can't be.

I'll leave you alone for good I promise.

If you answer this one question for me.

I just wonder,

Do you ever,

Think of me,

Anymore, do you?

First off let me say congratulations.

Heard that you just had a baby girl.

If she looks anything like her mother,

She's the prettiest thing in the world.

Swear that I'm not tryin' to start no trouble.

Tell your fiance he can relax.

I'll leave you alone for good I promise,

There's a question I just gotta ask.

I just wonder,

Do you ever,

Think of me,

Anymore, do you?

I know what we have is dead and gone.

Too many times I made you cry.

And I don't mean to interrupt your life.

I just wonder do I ever cross your mind?

I just wonder,

Do you ever,

Think of me,

Anymore, do you?

I just wonder

Do you ever

Think of me

AnymoreDo you?

I just wonder

Do you ever

Think of me

AnymoreDo you?

I just wonder

Do you ever

Think of me

AnymoreDo you?

Yeah, yeah, yeah

hello

2008-02-27T13:06:00.005+08:00

So much things haf been happening n i seriously miss my childhood days.without realising. it haf been 13 yrs since we became friends. Flashing back at the past. those days we used to had. all the fun n laughter we had. all those fight we made and all those silly misunderstanding we used to had. thinking back. its so funny.

Last nite i sat unda da void deck with diana. talking abt the past. those usual routine we used to had. we will definetly be at the playgrd at 4plus. playing blok catching. waterbomb. running in the rain. roller blading. adventuring. running away from the police. fighting over the playgrd with the chinese. all those arguements we had over stupid n silly reasons. jamming the lifts. climbing the letter box. escaping from the nite prayers just to lek2 at spider web!! woow!!! so much fun. bt dats like ages ago lah. 9 yrs back. we are hafing so much fun.

After i enter secondary school. the others are still in primary 5. still hafing fun without me lah. hahahha. bt still. those memories are just so sweet. the sweet memories,the sweet promises,the sweet talks. wow its like over already.

Now. everyone of us haf our own life to lead. whether its good or bad. we haf to decide for ourself. no more taking care of each other liao. all haf grown up and is going each n diff path. each of us is hafing our own problem in our own diff world. its difficult u c. cus we used to b so close n now. everytg change. no longer close like wen we were kids bt now we are just being there in diff world.

Everytg change. from good to bad n Bad to good. at first i was dissapointed in our change. bt soon after i realised dat i cant do anitg coz all of us are already grown ups. i can no longer tell them wad to do n hu to mix ard with. i myself is not dat perfect to tell them wads right n wads wrong.

She used to b the innocent one. always getting bullied by us and always the one hu will b very timid and quiet. now!! oohhlalla. she's much more matured den ani of us n soon holding on a huge responsibility. wow. i do pity her. n i do remember my words. i used to tell her dat if anitg were to happen to her. i will definetly bash her up. bt now!! its too late. she was too afraid to even tell me. coz she tot dat i wud really bash her up. now dat the truth is out. i just wish dat she cud be much more wiser nxt time n PLS!! take care of herself!!

No matter wad happen. she will foreva b my friend. good or bad. i will help her out n not leave her alone. haiz. GF!!! i miss u!!
As for now! i stop here as i got lesson to attend!! gonna miss everyone!!! ****MUACKSSS****

i hate RASA

2008-02-25T10:26:00.010+08:00

LIFE SIMPLY SUX!!!

arrg damnit!! i really hated work for da past weekend.

like shit u noe.

they treat me like a fucking dog!

make me run about and do so much stuff.

just bcause im a freaking regular.

Fuck Rasa Sentosa lah. haiyooooooooo!!!

Friday's work in pavillion was abit orite.

both my table of guest was pretty okey. FRIENDLY.

Bt wad went wrong was when. it was time to go home.

dat fucking captain release us at 11.20pm.

expect us to catch da last train. wtf!!!

7 of us. was freaking mad at the securities for nt giving us the transport slip.

Fuck lah. expect us to overnight there issit????

IDIOTIC!!!

Saturdae's work was fun.

as i had so much laughter with khai n alex.

we didnt do much serving. bt much laughing instead!!

woooh!! hahha.

well. i n faz had to stay back to finsh up the setting.

luckily 9 tables at siloso ballroom!

Phew!

i olso took da chance to practise me western table setting.

hahha. im confident liao! stayed till 3am. reach home at 4am.

BOOM!!!! sleep lah. tired siax!!!! cant take it duh!

Sunday!!! Ouh shit. what da hell.

had to wake up at 11am. damnit. im so tired sak. not enuf rest yet. haihs.

with my droopy eyes. i had to work.

me,syahrill n khai was like walking zombies lah.

hahha. the sun was popping hot!

Fuck.

all 3 function was outdoor! mampos!!!

Jade site 1 &2.. Lawn area!!

Shit!!

i really dun look forward to work siax.

went in work at 2pm. still orite as i only had to wipe cutleries indoor.

at 3pm. i had to go up n down looking for all the chair covers and trolly.

haihs. was sweating like mad dog siol!!

i was really shagged!!!

with the sun n the sand!

ouh gosh. wad a bad day for me!! haihs.

what really pissed me off was when i had to do all those guy's job.

it was hard!!

imagine pushing a fucking huge linen trolley full of 300chair covers up a long steep slope!!!

wtf!!!!

pissed off with dat assistant manager sak. that captain too!! arrrrgg!

i was damn mad. =(

i didnt get to work with syahril.

he's job was much easier. handling with less than 10 tables!!

me?? i n khai had 30 tables in total!!!

arrrrrrrrrrr!!!

i had enuf!! i wanted to go home.

i tot that it will end sooner or later.

bt to my surprise. it didnt!!

it was worst. i had so much tgs to do.

me!! alone!!! FUCK!!!

so fresking mad sak!!!!!

looking at khai. i pity him. we both was sweating like pig!!

hahhha.

after had our dinner. was the worst part.

me n Dina had to serve ***7 fucking VIP tables!!!***

wtf!!! 2 gurls to 7 VIP tables at lawn area wtih all the sands in my shoe!!!

FUCK LAH!!!!!!!!!!

tell u wad!! it all went cork-up!!

everytg went wrong n yar. WE DUN CARE!!!!!

everytg expect both of us to do. think wad?? we robots issit!!

damnit!! nv been cursing till ds wae sia!

its like fucking asshole lah.

so wad if we are da only regular!!! arrggf!!

work my ass off siax!! haiyyooo!!

worst day ever in my life.

n u noe wad. the guests are all like FUCK!!!!

they kept complaining dat they didnt get any attention frm us.

Very Idiotic People!!! (VIP)

Tot of going home b4 11pm.

bt dat bloody Fucking captain onli release me at 1am!!

Chibai bodoh Dorg.

bsar nye pukimak haram jad!!!!!

STRESS AKU!!!!!

Reach home at 2am. lek2. sleep. woke up at 8.30am.

SCHOOL!!!!

shit! im dead tired!!!!

bt i haf to come cos gt Test!!

Shit sia.

Damnit!!

I WANNA GO HOME!!

I DUN WANNA SCHOOL.

I JIUST WANNA SLEEP.

IM DAMN SHAGGED!!

PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-02-21T10:24:00.006+08:00

Aniwae!! my chalet is confirmed again! im still saving up $200 for food n yar!

my cake??

i really dun noe how. die siax.

My bdae is in 2weeks time n im getting nervous dae by dae.

dun noe lah. im just afraid dat i will end up all upset like last year. sitting at home counting down to my bdae all alone!! fuck siax! haix.

Tomorrow im working. damnit!

asela is nt working. die la like dat! haiyyoo..!!!!

shit siax. i just dun wanna work n just enjoy my youth sakkkkk!!

arrg!! pressure siol

Everyone in class in all going huhugaga over the higher nitec result.

woow. stress siax. i dun noe how sak. dun even noe w to go. haiz.

they are like going ard da class toking abt accepting or rejecting da course.

ouh gosh. i dun even noe if i can get in. bt. m i ready for da 2 yr course??

siak uh. 1year in office jer my attendance rabak.

wads more another 2 yrs siax!!!!!!

waduhh!! wad am i suppose to do!!! SHIT!!!!!

I miss my Past

2008-02-18T10:34:00.007+08:00

This is how close we used to be in da past. Well!!

A dae out with BOYFWENS!!.
I miss Them but!! nvm! =(

Night at BOAT QUAY was great.
even after we were chased by a dog!!
damnit!

Its all in the Past!! 2006

Boring =(

2008-02-11T13:37:00.000+08:00

damnit! im like so bored lah! rite now in school. feeling so low siax! boring giler! well. for the very first time ever. im in skul on mondae feeling very fresh n not sleeping! hehehe. proud of myself siax! well. i did had a gud nite sleep ystd. now im tired of sleeping! hahaha. kekek per!

hmm! later. im going rasa sentosa. taking my pay. had to give dat fucking sis $80 n my pay will all b gone! Fuck siax! tak berhati perut btol sak sak sak! haish! she even gt the cheat to msg me saying dat "its gud enuf dat i paid n book 4 u first." wtf!!! haix!! why on earth must i b granted a sister like her?? ouh wad da hell!!!

aniwae im gonna have my chochlate eclair at vivo later!! phew!! cant wait siax! tempating dok! sayang syahril is nt going to join us!!! he got cheer prac later!! aku baru ada surprise utk die!! spoil market uh! haihs!!

Valentine!! shit!! hahha. its ds week n i still haven got any date! mampos!! how eh!! everyone got their own date! me?? KERING!!! ahhaha. kekkek per! hmm! im still wondering if dat "guy" wud call me up n ask me out!!!! hahaha. DREAM ON SHIDA!!!!!! weee

A day out with my family

2008-02-08T04:05:00.000+08:00

07 February 2008

A day out with bro n family.

wooho. really had so much fun sia.

really enjoyed myself very much.

how i wish my everday cud b ds way.

haiz.

my lovely crazy BROTHA-AYIE
Anggun,Shasha,Shida,Harris
SIMPLY SHIDA

me n darling HARRIS
Shida rawk her own socks kaper!
little miss vain pot
07 February 2008
Crazy Peeps think alike! =)
Drag Queen
We look alike dun we??
a day out with brotha n family
Swweeeeet kan.

Brotha n hys 3 HEROES
Sham n AngguN
i envy this family siax!
sisters by blood babe!!

2008-02-04T05:20:00.000+08:00

a dae out with BOWFWENS

2008-02-04T04:10:00.000+08:00

me n gf in office wear! kekek per kiter?? hahaha

Fazli. KAKI GEREK

ITE===ITS TO ENJOY

Hey hey hey! hmm. well. im just counting down hrs to go school later. 3more hours n off i go to school n dreamland too. haha. damn shagged siax. just came back from work. didnt dare to sleep cuz confirm i wund wake up wan. hhahaha.

LIFE?? haiya. i dun noe y lah bt things just doent work out for me these daes sia. ppl keep blaming me for the slightest things dat i do. wah liao! damn! on saturdae,otw to work. i cried my whole heart out sia. i just feel so sad when syahril saed. "kau okey?? lau ada problem,blang lah aku." wah! at da bustop jgk sak i broke down! fuck! i cried all the wae till the bus reach clementi. dun noe lah y i suddenly feel so sad. haiz. didnt haf da mood to work sak. :'(

My freaking DAD! ouh gosh. he haf been very irritating ds few daes. keep nagging n nagging. every nite haf to quarell with him. FUCK siax! u noe wad he saed?? he didint wan me to look 4 my sis animore cos he saed dat he nv had a daughter like her b4! wth! irritating sia. he didnt even wan to give me a single cent. not even my daily expenses. fuck rite. all hys pay goes to that fucking bitch in batam! fuck her lah. how i wish one dae the ship that my dad boards to batam sink!! damnit! dad! im sorry to sae this bt I HATE U FUCKER!!!!

Mayb one dae u might noe the truth that the person i haf been loving is actually U!!

2008-01-29T16:59:00.000+08:00

Us in Class
Devil From Hell
Me n Gf

hey hey hey!! woohu! im back from school!! well. i like so dead sleepy six. haven sleep for nites sak. wah liao. just now the interview in school was okey lah. not dat bad. bt i did kancong abit lar. hehehe. happening per?? aku pakai makeup per! hahaha. kekek! woohhu!

Ystd,my sis suppose to come to school n meet my teacher bt guess wad?? ahhaha. my siblings PAITAU!!! hahaha. gerek per dapat siblings mcm g2!! hahaha.

N u noe wad?? im chatting with sheila rite now!! wooh! burning aper aku?? guess wad?? she saes dat ppl have been telluing her all the bad stuff about me! they sae dat prangai aku mcm sial. huh?? confused sak aku! i really tink i noe hu!! shit sAK prangai!! brani bual blakang aku tapi!! mcm PUKIMAK!!! HAIYYOO!! i really dun noe wad shit i haf done in their life siax!! they are the one hu haf been backstabbing me sak! BINGIT PE AKU!!! arrgg! really dun understand all these peeps hu nv appreciates me n keeps blame me for all the tgs that i haf done!! they haf make use of me and suck all my money n now here they are back telling others many nasty stuff about me!! wad da heck! if i happen to c dat person at my chalet. i make sure dat he will b humilated infront of all my fwens n my bro's too!!!! WAN, u SUX!!!!

Me n Fazli
Look at my beautiful EYES!!! weee

me with makeup on!! look so freaking fake!! hahaha.

Fuck

2008-01-28T07:45:00.000+08:00

wooho!! im at paula's place rite now!! blogging!! hahha. damn! im like so tired siax! after work went lpaking at teck whye mac till just now!! wohhouu!! gerek per!! if i sleep ar, i tink gone uh!!! penat sak.. haha. me,fi n ril spent our time at mac just in order nt to let me sleep!! hahha. jiwe per?? hehhe! haiyo! later in da afternoon, my siblings will b in skul. shit.. meeting dat fucker!! asshole siax dat LIM!!! nabei!!

Well!! valentine is ard the corner n its like everyone ard haf found their date!! ouh gosh! shit sak! hahhha. i also wan to find a date uh!! date dat hawt gay la!! hahaha. kidding!

My chalet!! yeah! its finally confirmed!!! it will b on the 14-16 march!! all are invited yar!! hahhha. bt!! hmm. who will b coming?? i really dun know!! shit sia!! really worrird!! hahha. i afraid later all paitao then i haf to like invite all those back-ups!! hahhaha. kidding only lah!! chill!!

Work!!! wohhu!!! now all the foreigners cant work animore n its like we SINGAPOREAN REGULAR staff is dead loh!! mampos!! how siax!! aziz ask me to pull more fwens bt its like!! damn!! arrgg!!! die lah!!

Im bored!!

2008-01-24T10:01:00.000+08:00

wah liao! rite now im like in school but! my mind is still at home sleeping sia! so tired and sleepy sia. mcm sial. hmm. went lpaking with syahril n diana. wooh scary mary pe?? someone uninvited was disturbing us sak. SIAL. scary sakkk! haiz. im feeling so down n i really feel like crying. juz dun noe y lah. feeling so alone sia. wadduh! ystd, the three of us suddenly became so emotional and we kept talking abt sensative issue sia. feeling so down bt i really dun noe wads da prob. arrg! i really miss hafing a boyfie sak. how i wish i cud haf a boyfie b4 my bdae! hahaha. kekek per?? weee! no lah! its like ppl ard me are all getting attached bt im here all alone sak. stress siol. haiz. hmm. im very damn sleepy! i haven sleep yet n i really got no mood to take my nafa todae. my legs hurt n arrgg!!!! i wanna go home!!!!! PLEASE!!!

2008-01-22T02:27:00.000+08:00

i really dun understand why haters just cant leave my gurlfwen alone!! i like sick n tired of reading ppl tagboard critizing her abt everytg!! wads wrong with all the haters out dere?? wad do u guys get wen critising her???not tired issit?? stop it sak!! just leave her alone lah. u guys dun even noe how is she like and still u guys dare to critize her?? ouh gosh! come on lah! get to noe the real her b4 looking down on her! u guys hater always sae dat she's one of a minah. bt pls!! dats so wrong sia! get to noe with her n u will noe y??" she's one of the greatest gf i've ever met n its true! she loves helping ppl out n NO!! she doesnt go ard bitching like those typical manah do! yeah she's hot! so wad?? she's born with it! n she got a hot bf!!! they haf been together since like last yr. bt ppl seem to come in between them! hey!! ntg can break them apart lah!! cant u guys just let them happily??? she dun even gif a damn on all her haters coz she noes dat there are ppl ard her hu loves her for hu she is and not wad ppl tink of her! so pls!!! just leave Paula n Matin alone for once! i really dun understand how can haters even tok abt her mum n dad?? wooh! her name is like popping hot uh!! u guys even noe her backgrd! buat research npk?? hahah Famous! thanks yar haters! for making my gf so famous! i dun tink she need help from u guys animore. she's like way too famous oready!!P/S. gf!! i love u for hu u are n not abt wad u haf or wad ppl tink of u! u are da greatest fwen i ever met! since da 1st day of school till now n FOREVER!!!

FUCKING GURLS BLOGGING ABT MY GF!!! CHECK DEM OUT!!

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budak2 kurang kasih syg!! haha

(like wad shahrul saed!! KURANG)

BORING!!! =(

2008-01-17T12:11:00.000+08:00

Me in CabbYPaula & Shida Us Waiting 4 Mummy
Fazli Sombeng!! hahhaa

Hey!!! im in school rite now. haiz damn sak. boring.ystd. wah. back from school straight away sleep sak! tired. woke up,got to noe they lpaking. wadduh! tot wanna join bt. haiya. todae got school mah. hiyoo. boring sak!! best kan dorg dapat lpak?? gonna miss so much fun sia. haiz!! =(

Hmm.Well school really sucks sak. got my 2nd warning letter ystd. hmm guess dat i will b quiting soon uh?? dats wad my teacher sae lah. better quit first b4 getting dismiss. hahhahha. fuck sak. im so damn fucked up lar!! as if i care like dat. debarred so wad????? my problem issit?? wad da fuck! my hair was red also kena caught!! its my hair!!! came to school to study! not came to obey da rules!!! wad da fuck!!! arrg! damn!!!

This weekend. i will be free! dun noe wad to do. where to go. whom to b with. feel so fucked up sak. arrgg!

so sick

2008-01-16T02:33:00.000+08:00

me at ben n jerry's
my other two gila boyfriends alone in misery
me n fi lawa
Fazli Shida Syahril

haiz! im feeling so down rite now! i just feel so lost. hmm. i just chatted with piee abt sth n it makes me so upset. im here
having a hard time. while he's dere acting as though nth
happen?? wad da fuck kan?? pie was like so surprised to hear
abt hym. haiz. wadduh. i was really upset wen he told me dat
he saw hym with wiyh my bro last week! wtf kan?? hmm. well.
yeah its true dat im leading a great life with all my BOYFWENS. but rite now bt still. the memories of us still lingers on my mind. its sad coz we are nt together animore. haiz.

but. i haf to sae a very big THANK YOU to FIE,SYAHRIL and
SHAHRUL for always being dere for me. they haf always been
the one by myside cheering me up. although i just got to noe
them but still. i appreciate them so much. they made me
laugh. made me smile and also made me feel so happy once
again. i noe that they are having some misunderstanding
among them bt still. i wud really wanna help them back
together again.

my 2006 fwens are gone. 2007 fwens are gone.
its time for me to really appreciate my 2008 fwens n nv wud i
wanna repeat ani of my previous mistake animore. i dun wanne lose anione again. esp syahril. i noe dat i may b cranky at
times n i realised dat i haf been like taking advantage of hym.
im realy soory BOYFIE!! haiz. sometimes i do feel bad for
traeting hym like shit. he haf been so patient with me all ds
while. i really owe hym alot.

working wise. well. yeah. work haf been fun coz i drag fie n ril
in with me n rul will b joing us soon. dats just great.
school???? nah. i raelly haf no more mood to go school
animore. i had enuf of it and yar! i dun haf interest in it animore sak!!!

My Story My Life

hello

Thanks!!

PictureS

Is this the End??

Gerrek lar!

Pictures of the GERREK moments!

im back!! yeah!!

sorry..

Friend?? what is actually Friends??

everytg is so different nowadays.

pictures of us..

well. life still got to move on...

happy happy

Pictures of Us!!

its so happening!

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Life like Dis!

a dae out with DIANA

Hey! i miss TaufiQ

Im Really Very Sorry!!!

im so lost!

i really miss hym!!

..Family Gathering @ East Coast..

My Chalet.

hello hello!

Its so happening kan!!!

i just love dis song

hello

i hate RASA

I miss my Past

Boring =(

A day out with my family

Fuck

Im bored!!

BORING!!! =(

so sick

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